solitude and singing..

Being alone is knowing

That in in this solitary splendour

Solitude, stark and staring,

Solitude, singing a lullaby

Solitude, singing a dirge

Surrounded by so many sundry things;

Things seen and unseen

Factors known and unknown

Solitude singing softly, chanting without ranting

Solitude’s songs that sing of solemn things

Silence singing golden songs

Silence healing ancient wrongs

If only silence could be

More than a memory

More than history

Silence can be more than words

Empty words echoing in an empty world

Echoing in empty valleys

Silence unspoken, unspoken, unbroken

Transfixed by time.

reagrds,

diddy ali

solitude...

Sitting in my room alone

Wrapped warmly in a quilt

Cold wind blowing outside my window

Feeling not a pang of guilt

For needing solitude

There is a certain feel of comfort

With a loved one so close by

But that feeling is not near enough

When unable to see eye to eye

And needing solitude

Our dreams were quickly shattered

Hopes of a future are no more

Time we spent mere memories

Grieving felt to the very core

And needing solitude

Solitude for peace of mind

Time alone to heal

We lost so much in so little time

But our friendship remains strong & real

Now & in our solitude.

regards,

diddy ali

memories and whispers

Whispers breeze

Fluttering by on

Satin lies told

When young and

Each day was won

Tickles and hugs

Of gentle moments

In the sun

These are things

That memory brings

When sitting alone

Drinking in that last

Memory, savoring it's

Purity,

Rolling it around your teeth

Cross velvet tongues

And ruby lips

Praying that this

Memory would never end

Fallen enthralled maybe comatose

Towards a brief respite

An ominous portend

Of hellish days and wintry nights

Which do blend, ascend and

Transcend normalcy

Only to have memory

Rescind my lonely trend

And disavow my

Lovely friend

Sweet memory

Of long dead things

Driving me towards

An insane end..

regards,

diddy ali

my memories

Today will be a memory

Yesterday is a memory drifting away

Memories turn into tears

Tearing us apart.

Fear of moving on, afraid of change

In a minute this will just be a memory

Memories are all pain in vain

Memories are like dreams

A reflection of the past.

Memories are vision of what it used to be

My memories are sadness and struggle

What are yours?

Are they sadness and struggle?

You are but

A memory that dwindles as each day passes me by

And as you slowly vanish

I huddle in my room and cry.

A memory that’s all I have

That’s all that’s left of you

Nothing but a mere memory

That still lingers

Only for a little while longer in my head.

Don’t forget about the past

Without memories there is no yesterday

Make every day one to remember

A memory to move on

With no pain or anymore regrets.

regards,

diddy ali

Loving Him Was Never Meant for Me :(

I used to think that without him,

There would be no sun after rain,

No hapiness after pain,

Without him there would be no joy forever more,

The world would be but a bore.

But now I see how blind I used to be,

Loving him was never meant for me,

You see, after him there was no rain for the sun to come after,

No pain before the hapiness and laughter,

After himthere was joy forever more,

And the world was everything but a bore!

regards,

diddy ali

my dead soul

My soul is screaming,

For a purpose in life,

Noone appreciates me for me,

I do so much in this world,

They tell me I'm a burden,

Can't they see I do something,

For them, and who they are?

I want to scream.

Make the pain finally end.

And from this world make them know,

That I slaved away for them,

I tormented my life for them.

And they'll weep and mourn,

They'll see the difference,

As I fly away,

On a moonlit cloud.

To my heaven's paradise,

The angels play beutiful melodies,

As I dance and fly,

Swiftly forgetting all before.

This paradise came,

Forgetting pain and loss,

And my happiness and peace,

Reunited together...

regards,

diddy ali

what i've been looking for

Raging distress sets in the calmness of my breath,

confusing and blatantly igniting any hatred left.

The softness in your eyes when my world divides,

close my mind and refusing to take sides.

Should I deride any traces of complacent memories,

to evade from this never-ending oddity?

What was once a refuge from your verity,

I am now trammeled in my abysmal heresy.

I have searched for someone to feel safe in embrace,

for I have held my breath for so long in terror's grace.

Thus you have assembled in faceless hope of guidance,

tainting a smile that has long sought cowardice in ignorance.

Regrets stitched in your anatomy of placate abhorrence.

I burned under the scrutiny of your merciless nescience.

What did you feel when you wrenched my conscience apart,

when you feed me with lies and left behind my heart.

Without a breath of strength left in my pride and forlorn,

you have left me in plethora of pervading lovelorn.

When you estranged yourself from your footsteps at the door,

I realize now that you're not what I've been looking for.

regards,

diddy ali